Well, it's been over 2 weeks since I started my new life and DietBet and Weight Watchers. How am I doing you ask? I know you didn't really ask, but you're reading this so obviously you're dying to know.  Well, I'm proud to say, I think it's sticking!!! I have not had a soda in close to 3 weeks... NONE!! Eno at Sonic probably thinks I've died. I pretty much have drank water and sparkling water. I saved my points for beer a couple of nights. I had a nonfat latte tonight but again... I had to points.  I have not had more than a taste of refined sugar and I have stayed within my points. And I honestly, for real, not lying, feel great!!  I feel empowered, I feel more energy, confidence and will power!! Is it hard? Heck yeah, but not nearly as hard as I thought. Do I miss some things... Oh yeah! But, I know that food is an addiction and a VERY slippery slope for me so at this point, I have to avoid things that could send me down that slope.
Have I exercised? Why yes, yes I have.  I don't do the gym.  It's just not my thing right now, but maybe it will be someday.  I am walking and actually running.  Just a bit, but I am doing it and it's hard and uncomfortable, but it feels good to do it and I can move more already just from a few days of getting off the damn couch.  I do so love the couch, but I need to get off it more often. I am planning to do a 5k sometime in June for sure, maybe sooner and I would like to run at least half of it.  That's my goal.  But what is my weight goal you ask? Well, I don't really have one.  I can't focus on the scale.  I have to weigh in for WW, but I am trying to keep that away from my focus.  I have a goal of fitting on a ride at Six Flags, and not using a seatbelt extender on a plane and shopping in a regular store.  My goal is to LIVE and not be a prisoner of my weight.  To be an example of health, courage, self-control, overcoming, and the hardest... patience.  I know it's only been 3 weeks, but I can see my journey ahead, you know picture it in my head.  Once I can do that, I know I will get there.  So, look out... there is a skinny bitch in here that's breaking out...one good choice at a time!.

 
I didn't want to go to the gym today...but I did.  I have been seriously struggling with sugar all weekend. Eating better still overall. I went to the the gym on Saturday and I walked that evening with my friend and neighbor Karyn.  It was less than a mile but still kept a decent pace.  Sunday was a no exercise day.  I was lazy and maybe recovering from Hanovers with the girls Saturday night. LOL.  So, I'm glad Chris got me back to the gym today.  I actually went through my circuit 3 times for the first time. YAY ME!! I made an appt with the trainer for Thursday to take me through some core strengthening exercises.  I'm hoping to add those to my circuit. I have a feeling they are going to suck!!  I have had 4 C-sections and my core is WEAK!! I want to be strong like bull in my core...but right now I am weak like fat girl. I can feel the workouts getting easier.  Walking, I can go further.
The food is my demon right now. It kills me to ruin those calories burned by all the exercise by having a sugar binge.  I have done ok, with soda.  I have had one or two...not gonna lie. I think about them all the time. It's sick really. Sigh...  So, that's that for tonight. Tomorrow is a new day for food choices!