So that takes us to today... Today was full of all kinds of Doctors appts. First the GI doc for an evaluation of how my stomach is holding up from the stomach stapling procedure. He is very concerned about my liver. It seems very inflamed, enlarged and tender. I get an ultrasound of that in a few weeks. I also get an endoscopy to look at my guts. What kills me is this... serious confession time here... I weigh 300lbs. Thats two rather large people, that's like 3 small people. I weighed 326lbs when I had surgery 13 years ago... and here I go again. How can I have put that back on??? Carnie Wilson had her surgery the very same day I did 13 years ago and she's fat again too. Now I am trying to get another surgery approved to revise this one to a gastric bypass. It's really scary, but I can't eat the things I need to eat to be healthy. So, I am doing it again. My plan is to go into it already losing, already exercising, with a much different attitude. I need a major attitude adjustment... on that note, I went to see the hypnotist today. It was interesting and I am determined to use every tool available to succeed this time. So, I am starting hypnotherapy and exercising and seeking weight loss surgery and I am going to do this!! I will have to say I wanted to giggle a little while she was doing the hypnotizing thing. It's kinda funny like I felt like a was being punk'd. We'll see! Having an open mind. I appreciate any prayers you might have for me. I can't do this alone. I'm sorry for this rambling today. I had to a lot to process and this helps. Going to the gym in a bit... for real I am!! Thanks for your support!