And furthermore... I confess

I failed again with the soda. I am so angry that I can't have them.  I went without (mostly:() for 40 days, but after all that time I "treated myself" to one yesterday, then one turned into 3 and I'm hooked again.  I made better food choices today.  That's something, right? I had carrots dipped in low fat blue cheese for dinner. No peeps today. I did have a Cadbury egg though. Thanks Easter bunny you demon!!!  It's sugar... I crave it. I don't understand how I make these choices.  I know what I need to do. I can feel it more than ever before, but then I get so damn pissed off that I can't have the things I want. Anyway, so I had to confess.  While I'm confessing, I didn't go to the gym either.  No excuse.  Just didn't .  So, before work I am going. I can't let this go. Slowly, but surely, even if it's 1 step forward and 2 steps back, I will get this done.  Looking forward to my session with the hypnotist this week. Ok... enough.  I appreciate those who read this putting up with my whining and ranting.  Good night!!